30 & beyond

 I blame Katy Perry for confusing us all in 2013. I remember hearing Unconditionally for the first time in a guy's car when he was driving me back home from our first (and last) date, and I thought to myself: this sounds like fun, let me try it on this guy, maybe it's a sign !  Putting together this thought lasted longer than our romance. I also know better by now than to take everything as a sign. To be perfectly clear, the best is if we just simply forget about signs and meant-to-be s and all that shit that makes you believe things happen for a reason. The reason is simply that you're alive with a working brain and made a decision . Then if you're not happy with the consequences, you can still go ahead and pull out the karma card, slap it on the table, learn nothing. But that's not why we're here, it never is. The problem with songs on the radio like Katy Perry's is that they all make you believe you can just go ahead and put all your trust in someone wit...

 I've never been more awake. That's kinda bad, because I have to work in a few hours. Yet here I am. I spent the last month in Tanzania. Nah, I'm not here to brag. I'm here to write another masterpiece for the future generation to learn from my mistakes, as so it seems it took me thrity-one and a half years to do so myself. I thought I paid for a vacation, but it turned out to be a three-week therapy. Never play Never have I ever with me again, you'll lose. Have you ever turned a maasai into your own personal psychologist? I have. Let's start from the beginning. I started the trip with a head full of confusing thoughts on past romances, current disasters and worries about the future. That's kind of my normal mental state, so I didn't give it any importance. All those things that I've written about, all my anger from my previous post, everything I couldn't get over - gone now. During the first week of my stay, I visited a maasai village. Best fuc...